I am enough

I am enough - Mayra Louise

Not good enough. Not strong enough. Not smart enough. Not thin enough. Not witty enough. Not pretty enough. Not sporty enough. Not social enough. Not friendly enough. Not sexy enough. Not normal enough. Not out there enough. Not politically engaged enough. Not creative enough. Not rich enough. Not worthy enough. Not lovable enough.

Just a couple of things I told myself, or let others tell me, through the years. I’ve come a long way, but I still struggle with self-compassion. There is a big gap between knowing and feeling. I know that I should be proud of and loving towards every single piece of me, but I don’t always feel that way. I get frustrated about that, and tadaaaaa… it all falls down.

I am enough. I am worthy. Therefore I deserve goodness. Therefore I deserve peace of mind. Therefore I deserve love.

I am enough

For some reason it’s easier for me to talk and think negatively about myself than to lift myself up. Every time I mess something up or dissapoint myself, it’s as if I say: See, you’re not good enough. If one of my friends talks herself down like that I would go out of my way to prove her wrong and show her all the strength, wisdom and beauty she had within herself. They say; “the things we tell others are actually the things we need to hear ourselves.” I believe that to be true.

I am enough. I am worthy. Therefore I deserve goodness. Therefore I deserve peace of mind. Therefore I deserve love.

The new year makes it hard not to reflect on things to do differently. I’ve always had new years resolutions. Losing weight was number one for over 20 years. Well, not this time. I’ve promised myself one thing this year: more kindness towards myself, reminding myself that I am enough. That’s my only new years resolution. Especially on my off days. It’s okay to just watch a series all day. It doesn’t make me a failure. Even when I feel like one, I am not.

I am enough

I am enough. I am worthy. Therefore I deserve goodness. Therefore I deserve peace of mind. Therefore I deserve love.

This will be the year that teaches me how to stop slapping myself in the face. An occassional clap on the booty is allowed though. Because, balance. This will be the year that I will use my supa-dupa strong mind to elevate myself instead of talking myself down. This will be the year that I will feel all that I know to be true. Every time I’m about to fall into the ‘I’m not enough’-trap I will tell myself the complete opposite. I don’t just want to know it, I want to feel it in every part of myself. Because I owe that to myself.

I am enough

And to you, my dear reader, I say:

You are enough. You are worthy. Therefore you deserve goodness. Therefore you deserve peace of mind. Therefore you deserve love.

Keep shining,

Mayra

Pictures by Monique Gerritsen

Clothing credits

Coat by H&M Trend
Jeans by ASOS Curve (shaping jeans)
Top by ASOS
Shoes by Nike via Oqium

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8 Comments

  1. I’ve been trying this the last few years. Not easy, but totally worth it. First instinct is still the slap in the face as you put it. Good luck and hang in there.

  2. Thank you for this article, love. As you can see, I am a fan of yours without even knowing you. You inspire me! Like I told you, you’re my spirit-animal, because I’m going through the same & I feel you 1000%. 2016 will be an amazing year for you!

    Love!

  3. Heel mooi geschreven. Ik ken de gedachtes van niks goed doen of zijn heel goed. Maar als je het eenmaal voor jezelf inziet dat jij er ook goed doet, maakt het niet meer uit wat anderen zeggen.

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